oh screw you.
I feel like killing myself right this point.
I can't believe everyone looked at me that way.
Sigh.
I'm like faking it the whole freaking time, i guess i think too much?
But they say i should be angry.
I choose to shrug them ALL off to avoid conflicts, but it's getting worse these days.

It's like i'm invisible, and my words doesn't register to her brain.

I tried to be a friend, but you wont let me.

Do you think i like doing it? Knowing that you're a good person at heart, but your actions always blurred that good person.
Seriously, where's that person i first met?
She has changed.
Everyone said so.
You weren't like that, NEVER was.
I wonder what has got into you. everyone wondered.

Sometimes you live in your own world, and ignored everyone around you.
It hurts to the core to know you're my friend after EVEYRTHING you've done.

I heard stuff about you, I always put those in the back of my mind and continued fighting for the friendship we had.
But recently the fighting spirit has slowly fade.
You have proven to me once again it's not worth to fight for it.

You call me your friend and you constantly belittle me.
I learn to not trust anyone right now.
Only God himself. I can only trust him for now.

You and your little stories kills the trust little by little.
Now, do you see where you're going?

I am between a rock and a hard place.

I hope i find the old you.

Maybe i should let him go to avoid all of this?
I tried to not mind, but i just can't.

Somebody save me before i jump out of my window.
And in case you don't know, i live in an apartment.
It would be a hard fall. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------